Shit I learned in April....
- April fooling me is too fucking easy! Fuck you Dan Cosh!
- I trust Niko, although this level of trust does not come naturally to me. I now know that when he tells me a thing it will remain true. I will try to let this be. To avoid having the same conversation more than once.
- Food is important! Thus, Niko is happy to feed me. And I am happy to feed my body. And eating out, and cooking and eating in, is fun! <3
- Having my ESA increased to a more reasonable amount does not mean that I am not poor! It just means that I can survive and be somewhat safer/more comfortable. Niko is still happy to buy our main groceries, but I can chose to buy foods and treats if I want to. No obligation.
- I feel safe and happy, completely. I love my little friend group in this awesome new life. I love having people to stay at Niko's with us. I do my own thing without any anxiety or pressure.
- I need to rest more! Self care and spoon preservation!
- I love food! Still all about gluttony, but also loving to work out! Taking care of my body makes me happy. Staying strong and healthy for me <3.
- Making sweet potato fries is pretty easy! Just cut them. Oil and season. Then bake at 200C, turning regularly, for around 30 minutes. Omnomnom!
- I can still draw! Starting a regular drawing practice again and I am feeling good about it!
- The Spectrum of Feels! All feelings/emotions are valid and important! It can't rain all the time.
- I really like playing Pathfinder RPG with my 'family'.
- Learning to practice more positive stims! Right now I really enjoy rubbing my legs against clean, soft bed-sheets, locking my fingers between my toes, chewing soft rubber/vinyl toys. Touching things that feel nice to touch generally.
- Domestic shit makes me ridiculously happy! I am all about cooking and cleaning and feeding people <3.
Goals for May...
- More doing! Daily goals have been set. I want to read, cross stitch, make art and work out every day, or as close as possible!
- More trust! Less anxiety, more faith!
- Practice gentle, patient self care. Focus on healing.